Realizations

One day you wake up realizing that things are the way they are in your life but it shouldn't stop you from continuing onward to find what keeps you going. As I have mentioned in the previous posts is that life for me has pretty much been through the ringer. I just keep on trucking along despite it all since I have learned through the years to sometimes let crap just run its coarse. No one can fix what crap you dealing with but you can spend time with people who truly want your company. I've even started the process of making my real life better although that takes time to accomplish fully. Sometimes you know that Second Life cannot be a way to escape from real life not being what you had dreamt it would be when you were like some teenager. Only thing that this life should do for people is to meet those who they would never meet in real life due to distance and to get the dream place you always wanted but cannot afford in the real world. It took me over a year to find the home that will make me feel most relaxed at because like real life it is never easy to find the place that is totally right for you. Now all I need is a man's body to keep me warm on my new snowy home. I have yet to find anyone who wants to volunteer to do that every day without complaints. I know I was in a cab real life today and this cab driver was saying "No man has snatched up a pretty girl like you with a beautiful smile". I thought it was nice of him since he wasn't fishing for tips or anything either but was simply being genuine. Most who say such things have known me forever where they dear friends or from men who only want something back in return. I getting too old for it all anymore as I see my 34th birthday about to come around the bend next month. I am to the point of saying to men, "If you want me so much then put a ring on my finger to show it". Anyone can do the whole casual thing but it takes someone extraordinary to want to spend forever with you. So where is my extraordinary man who is my soul mate? Hmmm.