Last year, I experienced the best first Second Life July 4th ever and I was so looking forward to it again this year. However now that my life on here has taken a downward spiral into an absolute black abyss then I just don't feel like doing anything today. I will just go to my jobs on here and forget what day it even is. I don't deserve to have fun or anything. I been threw so much in the last year on here that nothing seems to matter anymore. All I do is go to my model jobs and stare at lucky chairs to pass the time away. I even thought about quitting Second Life when all hell hit the fan which it isn't the first time I have thought of doing that. Sometimes it doesn't seem worth it to be on this virtual world anymore. Just like real life is if you don't have love on Second Life then nothing means a damn thing anymore. They say you have to be happy to be alone before you can love another but I say that is a bunch of bull. When you lose love and you alone then may as well be dead instead. I just regret everything in the past week and will never be able to live with myself with the mistakes I made.
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