Promises to Myself for 2nd Year on SL

These are some promises I vow to myself for this whole 2nd year on Second Life which some will seem mean to people but oh well.

• I will be myself and stop being a puppet to other people I not know very well.
• No more tipping excessively. From now on, only live musicians will be getting tips from me. 
• Refuse to give into guilt trips either said in chat, IM, groups, or in profiles.
• Don't buy things unless I have the Lindens from my paid jobs on SL to pay for them.
• Stop giving into temptations of any kind.
• Be proud of who I am in SL and in real life despite what others may say.
• Trust only those who have shown they deserve it.
• Give up on the whole blood doll thing because that was just a disaster from the start.
• Don't wait around for people to spend time with me. Do other things instead.
• Only go to clubs when I feel like it and not when others want me there.
• Try to make an effort to spend more time with those who do love me. And ignore the ones who don't.
• Spend more time off SL and do things RL I love doing like spending time with my cat.
• Don't refuse gifts from friends/loved ones. Instead refuse them from people I hardly know since basically strangers always have some bad motives behind it.

Delights in My SL World

These are the things and people on Second Life that bring me smiles each day:

• The sound of my daughter's binkie suckling.
• Silly AO that my daughter wears
• Swimming in the waters of SL
• Being looked after by my Protector
• Chatting with my sisters, Protector, brother, and vampiress
• Dancing whether it be solo or couple
• Relaxing at my land that is totally owned by me
• Riding my hovering broom
• Listening to my live musician friend play
• Helping out a customer who shows great appreciation
• Winning on lucky letter boards or chairs and Midnite Mania boards
• Being in a man's arms when I know he truly wants to be with me
• Exploring new or old nature sims
• Knowing I have a few friends who are always going to be there for me
• Taking snapshots because they always turn out better than the real life me pictures
• Feeling free to be silly when I want to be
• Truth hair!! Yeah had to name one thing.
• Calmly playing a game of greedy without caring about who wins
• Rollerskating or ice skating since I can truly do that on SL

As the song, "And these are a few of my favorite things" which they truly are. :)

Ignorant People

Okay so as always my virtual daughter was roaming away from our home on her own. She decided to go to this place that I got a landmark to that has the cutest faery shoulder and head pets. She was waiting around the lucky letter boards to win some faeries which she won almost all of them then she bought one for her head to be worn. Well there was three people standing there that weren't child avatars and one of them sounds off this gesture which I have one myself like that I use in this adult sim club. A store is not the place for such obnoxious gestures anyway. She kindly tells the woman that there is a child present at the store so if she would not play such gestures would be more respectful. The woman tells my daughter that there are no children in Second Life but only adults. Again that is untrue because teenagers from 13 years old and up are on here nowadays. However, my daughter didn't see the sense in making the woman understand how child avatars deserve respect and treated like a real life child so she muted the woman. I taught her well and she can fend for herself when she is out on her own. They never realize that even if her mommy (which is me) ain't with her that I am in fact close by somewhere so they may just find themselves reprimanded right here on my blog or her blog for being rude "meanies" to her. You do not treat my daughter like her feelings don't matter and get away with it. She may be an adult using a child avatar but that don't change the fact that everyone needs to treat her like any child on the real life streets and stores. Only difference is that instead of her running off crying like a real child may do, she will speak up for herself. My daughter was created to be a stronger version of me as a child and she does a great job being just that. Next time when people think of using obscene gestures or swear in front of my daughter will find themselves simply muted. I advised her to not even bother reasoning with adults like that because they can't even phantom how hard it can be being a child avatar on Second Life. I hope that these people who are rude to my daughter never have a child avatar themselves since I would hate for her to hang out with child avatars that are raised by such adult avatars. I despise people like that. They remind me of real life parents who don't care what they say in front of their children and they let their children run wild basically. I would expect the way she was treated to happen at an adult size clothing store with no child clothes but never at a faery pet store since they should know that child avatars will show up. I'm sure she will not be the last child avatar or parent of a child avatar to tell them to stop it.

No More Auto Greeters

Firstly, I want to mention that this is totally my opinion on things. Everyone knows by now that I work as a model at three different stores so through that time I have noticed a few things. Before I even modeled I knew how I felt on the subject of auto greeters. Plain and simple is I don't like them. You are hired as a live model where you are expected to personally greet each customer that comes to the store. When I used to be just another customer at a store which I model at, I wouldn't even say hello back to the models who use auto greeters and I still pretty much ignore what those say. I do not feel welcomed by a model if they can't even type out a "hello". It don't take much effort type out someone's name except maybe the super long ones or the display names that you can't tell what the letters are. A simple solution to typing out the store name and that you are there to offer assistance is to make your own gesture to trigger it on whenever a customer comes by. I know because I used to type all of that out for each customer when I was in my first couple of weeks modeling but I quickly learned that just me saying "hey" to a customer is showing that I am here and its personal to help them. I don't know if the whole using a auto greeter is a way to disconnect from the customers but it kind of makes some customers feel like that. The biggest reason why people use auto greeters is so they can go away from keyboard and hopefully no one on staff will come by to notice that. I multi-task a little bit when I model but I try my hardest to type out the greetings as fast as possible. Have I thought of getting an auto greeter? There are times I wish I had one but then I remember how I felt as a customer being greeted constantly by them. You really have to be more personal when you use auto greeters. For example, the auto greeter will ticker off the welcome message to the customer's name so you should move onward to typing out a "hello" or "how are you?" which would make them feel you really there. Showing that you are there and care about their business makes you a better model. I rather have like three customers in my private message box asking me where items are or any other kind of help than have no one. It is why I will never own a auto greeter. Now auto greeters used at clubs is just off-the-charts lame because you are counting on tips at clubs so using one of those devices is going to kill your tips amount. At a club, your main mission is to socialize with the group as much as you feel is enough so more tips will come in for you and the DJ or live musician. I am amazed that auto greeters haven't been totally frowned upon by stores with models and at clubs. Trust me if I owned a club or store then that is the first thing on my list of things not to wear/use while working. No one wants me as a owner or manager because I may seem fragile but you get me in a leader role and I will be tough as nails.

Keep Version 1 Viewers Alive

I am a huge fan of version 1 viewers to use for Second Life since they have always been the most stable for me. When people make more and more of the version 2 viewers that have higher graphics usage as well as taking up a lot of computer resources then they forget that many people who come onto Second Life have laptops. I mean laptops are the wave of the future with being able to have it anywhere and anyplace. I tried Firestorm recently since I don't like how SL Viewer 2 crashes me all the time but what seemed to be a nice play on Viewer 2 turned out to be utter disaster. Firestorm it seems is not developed for wireless internet laptop users. I applaud anyone who it actually doesn't drain tons from your laptop while using it. I watched as my wireless internet connection went from 5 bars to only 3 bars for the connection speed while on Firestorm then watch it go back to 5 bars when I closed Firestorm or during its crashes. Something is not good thing when it drains connection speed. I couldn't deal with Phoenix acting up on me which I assumed it was doing that to me the past few weeks because they slowly working on closing down Phoenix viewer for the new Firestorm. It is sad really since Phoenix was working superbly for me for so long. I proceeded to look for other viewers which I knew Imprudence was not good for me after the last time I tried it and had it freeze on me so quickly into logging in. I had heard rave comments on Kirstens viewer so I downloaded it and was about to log in when my anti-virus thing went off letting me kow that this program was not safe for my computer. Hell no I am not going to use a program that does that. I'm smart enough to run away from things that potentially have a virus or open wide to hackers. No offense to Kirstens viewer but I like the health of my laptop more than getting onto SL. Now Singularity viewer didn't have a good start with me after it crashed instantly after log in but I decided to give it another try since I really didn't have any other options left on the list of third party viewer. I guess a lot of developers gave up on making new third party viewers for some unknown reasons. However, Singularity is a nice little viewer for logging into SL since it gets it done without any fancy extras to it so I can log on and go to my jobs then spend time with those I wish to be around. I had to lessen the distance rate for Singularity since I figured that and the fact that I got attacked by like 6 groups when I logged in then I might not crash much. I do wish they had the features such as mute gesture sounds because those annoy me to no end. I can't ask people to stop playing those loud gestures since I have some of my own that I use occasionally but I shouldn't have to hear the sounds associated with them. Hopefully, Singularity will provide that in there next update. ~knocks on wood this will be the last viewer I ever download~ It doing a nice job and here's to hoping.

You're a Noob if...

You are a noob if you ask someone for Lindens.
You are a noob if you beg for someone to buy you anything.
You are a noob if you ask someone to give you an item you wearing. (A lot of things ain't transferable so duh!)
You are a noob if you cam into or try to sit in someone else's home.
You are a noob if your lack of AO screams out that you are. (People with no AOs are usually too cheap to even buy clothes so they become beggars when they want something)
You are a noob if you think it funny to bump or push people.
You are a noob if you do noob dances that look so stupid that you must know how idiotic you look.
You are a noob if you not realize that most people make Lindens by working and you should do the same.
You are a noob if you IM someone to date you and when they ignore you then you proceed by following them around like an annoying insect.
You are a noob if you want sex with someone and you lack the proper equipment that doesn't make us crack up laughing instead of be turned on. (This applies to male noobs)
You are a noob if you test gestures constantly at stores. (Stores ain't the place for gestures especially the obscene ones. We know gestures accidentally trigger but we know the difference.)

More will be added as I think of them or come across more noobish behavior.

Realizations

One day you wake up realizing that things are the way they are in your life but it shouldn't stop you from continuing onward to find what keeps you going. As I have mentioned in the previous posts is that life for me has pretty much been through the ringer. I just keep on trucking along despite it all since I have learned through the years to sometimes let crap just run its coarse. No one can fix what crap you dealing with but you can spend time with people who truly want your company. I've even started the process of making my real life better although that takes time to accomplish fully. Sometimes you know that Second Life cannot be a way to escape from real life not being what you had dreamt it would be when you were like some teenager. Only thing that this life should do for people is to meet those who they would never meet in real life due to distance and to get the dream place you always wanted but cannot afford in the real world. It took me over a year to find the home that will make me feel most relaxed at because like real life it is never easy to find the place that is totally right for you. Now all I need is a man's body to keep me warm on my new snowy home. I have yet to find anyone who wants to volunteer to do that every day without complaints. I know I was in a cab real life today and this cab driver was saying "No man has snatched up a pretty girl like you with a beautiful smile". I thought it was nice of him since he wasn't fishing for tips or anything either but was simply being genuine. Most who say such things have known me forever where they dear friends or from men who only want something back in return. I getting too old for it all anymore as I see my 34th birthday about to come around the bend next month. I am to the point of saying to men, "If you want me so much then put a ring on my finger to show it". Anyone can do the whole casual thing but it takes someone extraordinary to want to spend forever with you. So where is my extraordinary man who is my soul mate? Hmmm.

On the Move Again

It takes crap to hit the fan on Second Life for you to crave extreme change. Last time I went through so much on here I decided to change my shape and skin but I don't feel like doing that this time because I am happy with the way my avatar looks now. She could use a little bit of tweaking to look more like me in real life in the face area. Other than that, she is perfect and what I imagine myself looking like. I decided I missed owning land where I can have it in my name and set to my friend group so I did it. I knew that renting land with tier fees just totally sucked to the point that it took all my money in real life to keep up the rent. It took forever it seemed to find a land on mainland that I'd be happy to own without regrets. Hell, I have had enough regrets in the past couple of weeks that I've learned to think things over before I do anything. By having this land it puts me right smack dab into the range of Lindens I will spend per month. The great thing about owning land on the mainland is that no estate owner can just without warning close the estate so you have to move and feel like it was a waste of money. Not only that but the cost of it goes straight to your account where it is added to the cost you spend on premium membership. If I could have gotten more square mileage then I would have since I like the log cabin I have but i had to squeeze it into the plot of land. I had forgotten how much a pain in the butt rezzing a building can be as you move it about before saving it then taking the box back into inventory. I had a smaller cabin but the furniture was attached it which I was thinking the whole time "what kind of idiot attaches furniture to a home since people like to move the furniture around at least". I was not happy with that purchase and wish I could get my Lindens back. I ended up terraforming the land to death trying to get the cabin to fit better but all I ended up with was hitting barriers into another person's parcel so I just let it go. Bummed me out to have to get rid of the nice front porch on it but I had to in order for it to fit at all. After all that, I was thinking I should have just got two small cabins and let it be at that. I happy though. I need to buy a privacy screen of snowy trees for when neighbors will move in. The one thing I remember from owning all the land I have in the past is that people respect your privacy more than on rented houses or premium house which is what I desired. I didn't like having a neighbor bothering me when I had company although that is water under the bridge now. Here's to hoping this will be my final move on Second Life. I grow so tired of constantly moving.

July 4th? Whatever

Last year, I experienced the best first Second Life July 4th ever and I was so looking forward to it again this year. However now that my life on here has taken a downward spiral into an absolute black abyss then I just don't feel like doing anything today. I will just go to my jobs on here and forget what day it even is. I don't deserve to have fun or anything. I been threw so much in the last year on here that nothing seems to matter anymore. All I do is go to my model jobs and stare at lucky chairs to pass the time away. I even thought about quitting Second Life when all hell hit the fan which it isn't the first time I have thought of doing that. Sometimes it doesn't seem worth it to be on this virtual world anymore. Just like real life is if you don't have love on Second Life then nothing means a damn thing anymore. They say you have to be happy to be alone before you can love another but I say that is a bunch of bull. When you lose love and you alone then may as well be dead instead. I just regret everything in the past week and will never be able to live with myself with the mistakes I made.

Lies and More Lies

I learned something this week in Second Life which I know that it is always a learning experience on this place. I spent a year on here making sure that I never fall for vampires because they just can't be trusted. I have friends who are vampires or in clans as humans which I only trust them since they don't treat people like I have seen so many vampires treat others. I fell for complete lies of a vampire where I had to find a way to never have to deal with him ever again. It hurt me beyond belief because before it all happened I had made a huge mistake to leave someone I love very much. Not only did I have to pay Lindens to get a potion to give my soul to a vampire friend I trust but I also had to deal with the pains I have done and gone through due to this confusing time. I don't wish this pain on anyone. What I am trying to say by posting this blog is that if you are ever going to be a blood doll, vampire, or lycan on Second Life then make sure you know this person who you will give your soul to when they bite you or claw you for a loooong time. I should never have trusted this person. Anyone will spin a web of lies just to get your soul on their profile for that Bloodlines game so it will make them look better in it. I'm sorry but if you have to lie to get a soul then you should rot in hell. Especially don't mess with someone who knows like 3 people in the Bloodlines game who will make you rule the day you ever messed with me. I am nice but I have friends who will not be so nice to you when I get hurt. I just hope I can fix things with the person I love who saw me with this wretched vampire and got deeply hurt by it. If I have lost the man I love forever then I will personally pound a stake in this vampire's heart so deep in that he will never be able to drink another ounce of blood for as long as he is in the Bloodlines game. I publicly and profusely apologize to the man I hurt even though I never stopped loving him.

Top Favorite Places

I have been so opinionated lately that I thought for a change that I would post a light topic. Don't want anyone to think that I have turned into the wicked witch of Second Life. Oh wait I do have a hovering broomstick that I always wanted now. Hahaha


Firstly, we have my favorite stores to frequent because they are the best I have found on here so far:
Delirium Style
TRUTH Hair
AVid Gothing Clothing
Sassy Kitty Designs
LAQ
Lurve
Lacie Cakes
Twisted & Spoiled
FORMANAILS
Blacklace

Secondly, favorite places to hangout or relax:
Runestone
Hawaii
West Coast (yes it is a nudist place)
Black Horse Country
Club Exotico
My skyhome (no i ain't giving the slurl so dream on)

Lastly, favorite places to get furniture:
LISP
Mudhoney
whatnext
mudshake
Tiki Lounge

{I get nothing for posting these slurls by the way and nor would I accept anything for posting them. I feel they are the best I have found so far. I also didn't name all of them since I like to keep some treasures to myself.}

Exploring at Its Best

When I first joined Second Life I didn't expect anything from it. You spend your first few weeks roaming around different sims getting a feel for this world. At some point you find yourself at some club and engulfed with socializing up to your neck. There are times you feel yourself becoming some kind of fake with having to begin doing things that you never imagined yourself ever doing in your life. It usually ends up that you are just in the wrong club for you altogether. I been to quite a lot of clubs in my past year on Second Life so I know that it takes a special club to make you feel comfortable being yourself. I am known to be in a club where I say absolutely nothing the whole time. Some clubs you rather listen to the DJ playing tunes than socialize with anyone there. You may find a lot of people who go to clubs on here will as they call it "park" their avatar there while they do other stuff either online or in real life. I tend to do that myself. Nothing wrong with that. Clubs sometimes give off this aura that you can leave your avatar there without watching it and be safe. Black Horse Country is the essence of calm and fun all wrapped up in one that even if country music ain't your thing then you still like coming there. Club Exotico has become my home away from home with people who are so energetic and kind that you want to go there. I also recommend Club Delirium as the place to hang if you want to hear nice tunes around lots of people. Next comes the other hangout places such as cafes and parks, sadly a lot of those go out of style or change way too much. I remember when I started that I went to this one cafe like everyday when I logged on. Nowadays, it has moved so many times and changed so much that the good vibe memories of it are just gone. Places on here that you had so much memories at can be depressing when they are not at all what they used to be. This cafe I speak of used to have the mix of everything I enjoy on Second Life which is outstanding nature scenery, calming atmosphere, and lots of wonderful people to chat with. The past couple of weeks, it has been moved and reduced to nothing but a mundane looking Starbucks which makes me want to cry when I remember seeing it like that. No one really goes there anymore. They used to have the biggest traffic numbers for any non-club that I have ever seen and now it is down to like maybe 800 tops a day. I will miss that cafe because it was such a huge part of my Second Life so much that I practically begged to go back there when things got a little heavy between me and the owner. Now, I'd like to touch on the majestic beauties of nature sims around this virtual world. People who make them spend a lot of time thinking of how it should look and feel so much that you can tell this by simply spending a lot of hours sitting in a certain area. They place nature sounds to add to the calming atmosphere so you almost feel like you are somewhere real life. It is the ambience of sounds, trees, plants, and builds that make a nature sim the perfect place to sit back and let yourself be transported to a mediation type emotion. Runestone is one of those nature sims that I lose myself at in a good way. Hawaii is so perfectly put together that you literally feel like you are in a tropical space in your mind. Lake Gnoma always makes me feel like I am up at camp relaxing in the water whenever I have gone there. Well I can't think of anything else to say about exploring but simply to do a search for destinations that you may like going to and landmark those places you really like going to.