I am the first to admit that my last relationship where I met the person on Second Life shook me up hard in that it made me crave to make some major changes in my life on here. It was something I never saw coming because I even saw in his eyes on webcam that he loved me but that never lasts forever. I was shaken when I found out what extremes he went to in order to dump me instead of just being man enough to say so. I couldn't log on as my neko self without having the constant reminder of him being my "king" to my "queen" title as a neko. It doesn't bother me to see my daughter as a neko but it did as myself. I spent days thinking about it all and realized that I would be happier turning my avatar into a faun elf. I find myself trying to move forward in my life with this new faun elf look but it not easy because he is still in my soul even if I wish I could just forget all about him. To say the least, I been feeling like a shell of my usual self. In time, I will find my way past all the pain and be able to have a good life without him. I am still a neko deep in my soul but life is better as a faun elf as it speaks to the shy strong side of my personality. Just like with my neko look, if anyone doesn't like it then they will just have to learn to deal with it because I am not changing what makes me comfortable.
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