To Be Skinny Or Not to Be

One evening, I was at a club on Second Life where the usual conversations among circle of friends were going on when this person asks why every woman on here wants to be skinny and short. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to realize why this is. People tend to alter their avatars to be fat when they want to make fun of the way overweight people look like in real life. No woman wants to come onto here to deal with the constant ridicule of body weight. Of course, people having big butts on here is more acceptable than full on overweight look. I am overweight in real life but when I come onto here I feel like sexy in this skinny perfect pixel. It is not a fun existence in life to be overweight because you are made fun of since your early years of school and way into your adulthood. I have found that only a small number of men prefer overweight women over the thin ones. It also makes more sense that avatars are skinny due to the fact that we hardly if ever eat in this world. Can you imagine Second Life with a bunch of overweight avatars? I don't think anyone can answer that as a yes unless they like their significant other as overweight. Every woman wants her man to love her skinny or overweight, rich or poor, and healthy or sick but that is adoring not only the Second Life self but also their real life self. I never care about looks in either world but I do have things on men I don't particularly like which are the super muscular look and the noobish look in avatars. I worked hard to get my avatar to look the way that I like to see everyday I am logged in so I appreciate men who took a fairly good amount of time on their avatar look. I wouldn't be with a overweight looking male avatar because it gives me bad memories of being at club events where they looked that way to make fun of overweightness. The whole idea of online dating is that you come to know the person based on their personality and not solely on how a pixel looks. I tend to refer to my Second Life self as a pixel when I am with any man since I don't want them to get used to a skinny body when I am the total opposite real life. Everyday I work hard in real life to hopefully be somewhat skinny which I feel that my avatar helps me to keep motivated to lose weight. However, I am not losing weight for the strong need to please the men who don't appreciate me for who I am but I'm doing it for my own health. The hard facts is that so many people see beauty as skinny but it really isn't since the most beautiful/handsome people in both lives are those who a nice in personality and don't set forth in life to deliberately hurt others. I know for me that nothing sexier in a man than his honesty and sense of humor.

Discovery of Epicness

Amazing how it takes pain in life to discover a brand new store that is in a different style of items from what I am used to with the neko way of life. I originally went to that store when I saw their stylish faun hooves on the Marketplace because I like to go to stores in-world to buy stuff if at all possible. We all know that Marketplace delivering items cannot exactly be relied upon lately. The shopping spree to turn myself into a faun elf the past week all started at the store called Epic and believe me when I say that they named the store perfectly since it is indeed full of "epic" awesomeness of items. I have about 3 pairs of faun hooves from that store and cannot wait to see what else the creator thinks of next to mix with hooves. Last night, I purchased a pair of high-waist jeans that include hooves from that store but I got it from the Marketplace store that they have. For some reason the store had been crashing me whenever I spend more than 10 minutes in there and it is beyond lagging so thank goodness for Marketplace actually working correctly. They have nice clothes there too as well as accessories. Now for the elf ears I chose to go to Illusory store which I had visited often simply to daydream about owning the pair of ears that I now own. What faun wouldn't be complete without antlers? Well I found the best ones at Illusory too which are like tree twigs instead of actual bone antlers. I prefer the non-conventional way of putting a faun avatar together. It had to still be me before I changed over to a faun so I kept my shape I worked hard to get perfect, tan skin that I adore, and the signature leopard spots on my body that people know as me now. I am still a neko in my soul as well as when I am working my model job at Bitter Bunnie Designs but we all need to make huge changes in life. Oh and I got the twitchy tail for my faun look at Epic too which I can't believe I went on the hunt for one on Marketplace when it was right there in the store I got the hooves. I think I look cute sexy but how men will react to it is probably going to be the same as the neko way I was for over a year. It seems any way of life on here that is not human seems to get some people asking questions as to why you are a certain way. Oh well.

Changes In The Air

I am the first to admit that my last relationship where I met the person on Second Life shook me up hard in that it made me crave to make some major changes in my life on here. It was something I never saw coming because I even saw in his eyes on webcam that he loved me but that never lasts forever. I was shaken when I found out what extremes he went to in order to dump me instead of just being man enough to say so. I couldn't log on as my neko self without having the constant reminder of him being my "king" to my "queen" title as a neko. It doesn't bother me to see my daughter as a neko but it did as myself. I spent days thinking about it all and realized that I would be happier turning my avatar into a faun elf. I find myself trying to move forward in my life with this new faun elf look but it not easy because he is still in my soul even if I wish I could just forget all about him. To say the least, I been feeling like a shell of my usual self. In time, I will find my way past all the pain and be able to have a good life without him. I am still a neko deep in my soul but life is better as a faun elf as it speaks to the shy strong side of my personality. Just like with my neko look, if anyone doesn't like it then they will just have to learn to deal with it because I am not changing what makes me comfortable.